I'm not funny. What I am is brave. - Lucille Ball
Wow! I'm so excited to have heard from so many of you, and so soon. You see, I was afraid that I'd start this blog and no one would be interested in it. I figured the worst case scenario is that I could be like the penguin in the picture above, I could be brave, and then run like hell if I didn't get any response.
I'm glad I didn't listen to that nasty little chatterbox in my head, (it really needs to shut up!). I don't know about you guys but I have positive me on one shoulder telling me, "You can do it!" and negative me on the other saying ,"Yeah, really." Frankly I wish my negative side had more energy. It's easier to fight against things you know are untrue, like, "you're stupid, you're incompetent, you have zero talent, you're skinny," then the lazy dismissal of, "Yeah, really."
It's disheartening to realize that I've been fighting a battle with "Yeah, really" for most of my life. It would be more impressive if it was something more important, but the fact is that for most of us it's the little things that hold us back.
A stupid comment from a stranger, a roll of the eyes of a friend, a parent's "I'll believe it when I see it." It's these little niggling things that keep us from achieving our goals. Sometimes I think I should take these little things and turn them around. It's kind of like the Seinfeld episode when George decides he's going to do the opposite. What would happen I wonder, if I didn't hear "Yeah, really" in a negative way? What if I could teach myself to hear "Yeah, I'm Really going to do that and I'm going to do it now!"? What power that would have.
As far as the blog goes, I've been thinking about doing it for a very long time. I'm so fed up with people being treated unkindly basically because they're good people. Us quiet, shy, unassuming folks are the ones that get pounded on the most. Bullies spot us a mile away and make us pay for their insecurities, but no more for me!
I used to take stuff I wouldn't take now, you know, keep my head down and try to be invisible. It wasn't until a few years ago when I was facing middle age that I decided that I was no longer going to be a victim, that I was no longer going to allow others to determine my worth. Now I've got to deal with that bully inside me, somehow I think it will be a harder battle!
Some of you are still dealing with outer bullies, thinking that if you could just learn to deal with them you'd be happy. But, I believe that the inner bully is the key. Getting that jerk to shut up will give you more courage to deal with the other bullies in your life. I say, let's fight them both and do it together!
Feel the fear, but do it anyway!