Sunday, May 3, 2015

Susan, You Got Some 'Splainin' To Do!

Boy do I ever!

I've been trying to get back to this blog for a long time now, and I just realized when I opened it up that the last post I made was nearly 4 years ago!

OMG!

In the spring of 2011 I had a business opportunity I couldn't turn down.  It had nothing to do with quilting, but I was very interested nonetheless.  Frankly, I'd hoped it would turn into something profitable and I admit to loving the challenges involved.

We did well for about 6 months, and then the situation changed, and it all started to fall apart.  Several times we rebooted, but circumstances beyond our control intervened.  As it turned out, the timing just wasn't right.

I have no regrets.  It was an amazing experience in so many ways.  The best thing was that my business partner became one of my very best friends, someone for whom I feel a great deal of admiration and affection.  He is also an amazing cheerleader, and in many ways was the inspiration for me going back to this blog.  There is something so wonderful about someone who's encouraging without being insincere, and who believes in what you can do without reservation.  What a gift!

About the same time my father's Alzheimer's disease was hitting him, (and our family), hard.  Six months after my last post my mother had to make the painful decision to put him into a care facility.  It was traumatic and painful.  My mother is an incredibly strong woman, but putting my father into a home almost killed her.  So, while Dad was in care, my mother was suffering and we were doing what little we could.  There's not a lot you can do except be there.

He was at the assisted living home for about two years, and then my mom had to move him to a memory care unit, where they were able to give him more care.  Thus began a round of falls and emergency room visits, and the sinking realization that Dad no longer knew us or understood what was going on around him.  It was hard to watch this brilliant man struggle, but at the same time he taught me so much.  Even in the worst of his illness he was kind and considerate of others, and always said "please" and "thank you" and expressed his appreciation for everything that was done for him.  He was a very special man.

On November 3, 2014 he passed away.  We knew it was time as his body had failed even more than his mind, and when the time came it was a blessing he went so easily.   He lived to be 80 years old, and he and my mother celebrated their 60th wedding anniversary two weeks before he died.  I was very lucky to have him as my father and cherish his memory.

I admit that I have done very little sewing or quilting in the last 4 years.  My design business suffered because of my other business interests, and my father's illness.  I didn't feel right about taking on clients when I didn't know if I would be available when they needed me.  So, about two years ago I closed it down.  I was offered an opportunity to work for a small start-up on a long term contract and am still working for them doing design work, updating their website, and consulting on various projects.  The owner is another very good friend so she was able to work with me through my Dad's illness.

I have had this blog calling to me for a long time.  I still get emails from time to time from my followers asking for advice and wanting to know when I'll start posting again.  I feel like now is the right time.  I feel like I've been tested, and that in the testing I've learned a lot more that I can share.

I'm also a little older and wiser, and since I've been out of the quilting world for a while I feel like I'll be learning along with my readers.  Everything has changed so much since I started blogging the first time. I'm looking forward to hearing from you again, and hopefully we can help each other navigate the joys, frustrations, and silliness of dealing with the world of creativity and imagination.

It took me a while to get back, but it's great to be home!

Happy Stitching!

Susan